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Hmm, My head hurts.
Life leads to the the worst things.
Things like love, hate, death, caring, deceit, friends, enemies.
God my head hurts, I am trying to figure it out without you. With out your wisdom, love, grace without the relationship with my creator, my true father. I was driving back from the winter X-Games in Aspen. I heard the song “Here I Go Again” by Casting Crowns. How true is that.
How Stupid!
How can I be a person that claims to love the heavenly father above all. And I can’t even ask my earthly father how him and the BIg Guy are doing. More than that, more than that. My stepmother has decided that christianity has little wiggle room for other religions. (Christians don’t believe that Buddists will go to heaven, can you really blame them Buddists believe the state of nothingness is a good place.) It is so hard for me. I must confess… I am deathly afraid of my parents thinking I am off, misinformed or stupid. But look, now that I just wrote those words, I find myself wondering why I should be afraid of those things. Hmm, Its time I put my fears aside.
Just to let everyone know I am still afraid, very afraid. At the same time I want to grow, into something better, something God will view as a servants heart.
